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  The poor thing had nothing left to throw up. Lauren had to pull over once during the drive to Michael’s, but Erin had just retched out the door, producing nothing. Then again, once they’d gotten home, Lauren had rushed to bring her the trash can, only to have her heave over it to no avail. Lauren was giving her tiny sips of water, but she dared not risk anything more than that.

  “I’m sleepy,” Erin mumbled, and Lauren wiped her cheeks and forehead with the rag.

  “I know. How about we try to lie down?”

  “‘Kay,” Erin sighed, falling over the side, and Lauren grabbed a pillow and placed it under her head just in time.

  “The trash can is right here, okay?” she said, moving it close to the couch.

  “Are you leaving?” Erin asked, a touch of panic in her voice.

  “Of course not,” Lauren said, sitting on the couch beside her and placing her hand on Erin’s leg. “I’ll be right here with you until Daddy comes home.”

  “‘Kay,” she said again, her eyes falling closed, and Lauren sat back on the couch, gently rubbing her hand over Erin’s calf.

  “Do you have a crown?” Erin asked softly.

  “A crown?” Lauren asked. “No, I don’t think I do. Do you?”

  Erin shook her head.

  “Well then I guess we’ll just have to get you one,” Lauren said.

  The tiniest smile curved Erin’s lips and she nodded, her eyes still closed. “Are you a princess?” she nearly sighed.

  Lauren smiled. “No, I’m not a princess.”

  “Oh,” Erin said, her voice soft and far away. “Daddy thought you were.”

  Lauren’s hand stopped on Erin’s leg for a moment as she looked down at her, but she could tell by her deep breathing that she was right on the border of sleep. She felt an ache in her chest at Erin’s words, and she swallowed before resuming her ministrations, rubbing Erin’s calf softly.

  In a matter of minutes, Erin’s breathing was deep and regular, and Lauren knew she was finally asleep. Careful not to jostle her, she stood from the couch and walked down the tiny hall to the room that was Erin’s, grabbing the blanket that was strewn across the bottom of her bed. As she turned to leave, something that had been tangled inside fell to the floor with a muted thud, and she looked down to see a small red photo album at her feet.

  She bent to pick it up, taking it with her as she walked back out to the living room and gently laid the blanket over Erin.

  Lauren sat beside her, opening the album, and immediately she brought her hand to her mouth, masking a tiny laugh.

  The first picture was of Michael in a little league uniform, wearing a baseball hat that looked much too big for his tiny head as he squinted up at the camera.

  “Oh my God,” she said softly, shaking her head with a smile before she turned the page. The next one was of Michael sitting on an older woman’s lap, covered in something that looked like jam. She smiled softly, running the tip of her index finger over the image of his face. He had been the most adorable child; big brown eyes and messy black hair with those little Cupid’s bow lips. She could so clearly see the Michael she knew in those tiny features, but Erin was distinctly there too.

  Lauren smiled, turning the page, and instantly her smile dropped. Her hand came to her mouth again, but this time, she merely pressed her fingertips to her lips as her eyes began to sting.

  It was the picture she had given him. The one of the two of them at his graduation.

  She couldn’t believe he still had it, that he had saved it after all this time.

  Lauren inhaled slowly, shaking her head. It just didn’t make sense. Why would he keep it? Especially after…

  Blinking quickly against the tears she felt rising, she studied the picture. Michael wore a tiny smile on his lips, looking down at her with something like admiration in his eyes, despite the fact that he was the one who had just graduated. And there she was, looking at the camera, leaning her head on his chest and smiling widely.

  Completely unaware that in a few short weeks, her world would be ripped out from underneath her.

  She closed her eyes and the book simultaneously, dropping her head back onto the couch.

  “Damn it,” she said to no one in particular, breathing deeply to regain her composure.

  When she felt like she had a handle on herself, she stood and took the album back to Erin’s room, placing it at the foot of her bed. She stood in the doorway for a moment, staring back at the book before she turned and headed out to the kitchen.

  Lauren glanced at the clock on the microwave. It was just after six. Michael would be finishing up his test any minute. She walked over to her purse and grabbed her cell phone and the scrap of paper with his number on it, sending him a quick text.

  Hey, it’s Lauren. Everything’s fine. Erin’s sleeping. You might want to pick up some Pedialyte at the grocery store on your way home.

  She tossed her phone back into her purse and walked back over to the couch, grabbing the remote and sitting down next to Erin. She turned the television on, lowering the volume, and quickly found a sitcom rerun.

  And she sat there, staring at the screen, but she couldn’t make her eyes see anything but the image of her and Michael, forever immortalized and happy in that photo.

  True to his word, Michael arrived home shortly before seven, carrying a bag from the grocery store.

  Lauren glanced over at him as the door opened, and he smiled softly, taking off his jacket.

  “Hey,” she said, standing from the couch and stretching.

  “Hi,” he answered softly, tossing his jacket over a chair as he walked toward her. He placed the grocery bag on the table and glanced past her into the living room. “How is she?”

  “She’s okay. She’s been sleeping for a while now.”

  Michael nodded, running his hand through his hair as he exhaled. “Thank you again. I’m sorry you had to give up your evening.”

  “It’s fine,” Lauren assured him with a shake of her head.

  He nodded, walking past her into the living room. For a second he stood there, looking down at Erin, and then he exhaled a heavy breath, sitting down on the recliner beside the couch and dropping his head into his hands. “You can’t imagine what this does to me,” he mumbled.

  “She’ll be okay, Michael. It’s just a virus. It’s almost over,” Lauren said, following him into the living room.

  He shook his head, still looking at the floor. “That’s not what I meant.”

  He looked totally dejected, and Lauren stood there, watching him but not pressing him further. Instead, she battled the innate reaction she had to cross the room to him, to kneel in front of him and wrap her arms around him, anything to take that look off his face.

  “The only reason I’m even going back to school is for her,” he finally said, glancing up at Lauren. “But it means I have to leave her when I could be spending time with her. It means I can’t take care of her when she needs me.”

  He shook his head and looked over to where Erin lay sleeping on the couch. “Her mom’s not around. I’m hardly around…” He trailed off before looking back at Lauren. “It’s just, like, am I doing the right thing? Is it worth it? I just…I just wish I knew, ya know?”

  Michael sat back against the seat and closed his eyes, sighing heavily.

  “Hey,” Lauren said softly, walking toward him. “You’re doing the right thing. You’re building a future for her. Most parents are away from their children during the day. It’s the whole reason I have a job,” she added with a tiny laugh, hoping he would smile in return.

  His eyes remained closed, but the corner of his mouth twitched slightly, and Lauren smiled, closing the distance between them and kneeling on the floor next to the chair. “It’s the time that you do spend with her that counts,” she added. “And you’re doing an amazing job.”

  Michael laughed humorlessly. “You’re still the same,” he said with a shake of his head.

  “But you are,” she insisted. “S
he’s smart, she’s motivated, she’s so kind to everyone, Michael. She’s a perfect little person. And she adores you.”

  Michael opened his eyes fully then, looking at Lauren with such intense emotion that she felt her legs falter under her weight, and she dropped gently from her kneeling position to sit on her calves, her eyes falling to the arm of the chair in between them.

  After a minute of silence, she heard him shift in the chair. “You know something?” he said softly, and when Lauren looked up, she saw he was sitting up now, closer to her, his eyes intently on hers.

  “That first day I dropped her off…the first time I had to leave her…the only thing that kept me from running back in to get her was that I knew she’d be with you.”

  Lauren’s breath left her in a soft rush, her eyes locked on his, and he smiled gently. “It’s true,” he added.

  “Miss Lauren?” Erin’s tiny voice called, and both of them whipped their head in her direction.

  “Hey baby,” Michael breathed, sliding off the chair and kneeling beside his daughter. Lauren could only watch him, still stunned into silence. “I’m here now. You okay?”

  “I don’t feel good, Daddy,” she said with a tiny whimper, and he brushed the hair away from her face and pressed his lips to her forehead.

  “I know. You’ll feel better soon.”

  Erin pulled her knees up into her chest, lying on her side, and Lauren wondered if her stomach was hurting her again. “Is Miss Lauren gone?”

  “No, I’m right here,” Lauren said, finally finding her voice again.

  “Can you stay with us tonight?” Erin asked softly, closing her eyes.

  Michael glanced back at Lauren, his expression startled, before he turned back toward his daughter. “Honey, Miss Lauren can’t stay here. She has to go home.”

  “No,” Erin said, pulling her brow together. “I don’t want her to leave.”

  “Erin,” Michael began, but Lauren cut him off.

  “I’ll stay, sweetheart.”

  Michael turned toward her, and Lauren quickly mouthed, “Just until she falls asleep.”

  He nodded, bringing his attention back to Erin, and Lauren crawled over to them, sitting on the floor by Erin’s feet. Michael stroked her hair for a minute before he turned, sitting up against the couch by his daughter’s head.

  Lauren turned to look at him; he was so close now, the small trash can being the only thing that separated the two of them. Just as he turned his head to look at her, a loud, grumbling sound filled the space between them, and she raised her eyebrows, glancing down at his stomach.

  He laughed softly, pressing his palm to his stomach, and Lauren asked, “Have you eaten anything?”

  Michael shook his head. “No, I came right home.”

  “You must be starving,” she said, standing from her spot on the floor. “Let me make you something.”

  “No, you’ve done enough already,” he said, making a move to stand up, and Lauren held out her hand.

  “No, stay with her. I’ll throw something simple together,” she said, walking out of the living room before he could protest further, and she heard him sigh in acquiescence as he leaned back against the couch.

  Lauren opened his fridge, and after scanning it for a minute, she pulled out what she’d need to make him a sandwich. When she was finished, she grabbed a bottle of water from the door of the fridge and brought both out to him.

  He was still sitting with his back up against the couch, but his head was resting against the cushion and his eyes were closed. She stopped, wondering if he had fallen asleep, but then he rolled his head to the side and opened his eyes.

  “Hey,” he said softly, shifting to sit up, and she walked over to him, handing him the plate and the water before she sat back down on the floor in front of Erin’s feet.

  “Thank you,” he said as he picked up the sandwich and took an enormous bite, making a contented sound in the back of his throat.

  Michael sighed around his mouthful of food, chewing slowly before he swallowed. “Sorry. I didn’t realize how hungry I was until you brought this in here,” he said, taking another bite and putting the plate down between them to open his water. He looked back at Lauren and lifted his brow, motioning toward the sandwich, and she shook her head.

  “No, thanks. I’m fine.”

  He nodded, taking a sip of water and swallowing the bite he had just taken. “Damn, that’s good. What’s in this?”

  Lauren laughed. “Whatever was in your fridge. I just used what you had.”

  He picked up the sandwich and turned it slowly, his brow furrowed like he was studying an ancient artifact, and then he shrugged before he took another bite. “It never tastes this good when I make one for myself.”

  “You’re just hungry. It’s all relative,” she said with a laugh, leaning back against the couch and bringing her eyes to the television.

  After a few minutes of silence, broken here and there by the sounds of appreciation Michael uttered as he finished his sandwich, Lauren said, “So, how was your test?”

  Michael ran the back of his hand across his mouth, swallowing the sip of water he’d just taken. “It seemed fair,” he said. “I probably did okay.”

  Lauren smiled and rolled her eyes. “Which means you aced it.”

  He laughed at her annoyance, his expression confused. “Why are you saying that?”

  She lazily rolled her head to the side, looking at him. “You always used to do that. You’d always belittle how you thought you did on a test, and you’d end up blowing it out of the water.”

  “That,” he said, pointing at her with his bottle of water, “is absolutely not true.”

  “Sure it is. The ones you failed, you blew off on purpose. But when you actually cared about a class?” She moved her hand through the air smoothly. “Straight A’s. Just like that.”

  He shook his head, a small smile on his lips. “Apparently, your memory of me is a little warped.”

  Lauren felt her smile drop. “No, I don’t think it is,” she said softly, looking away from him.

  Out of the corner of her eye, she could see him looking at her, although she couldn’t make out his expression. Eventually, he turned his head, slowly spinning the cap back on his water bottle. She heard him take a small breath before he cleared his throat.

  “So,” he said tentatively, “do you like living in Bellefonte? Or do you miss home?”

  Lauren inhaled deeply, trying to shake off the awkwardness of that last moment between them. “I like it here. I mean, of course I miss home, but I see my parents whenever I want, and I have dinner with Jenn once a month, so,” she said with a shrug.

  “Jenn?” Michael said, his brow lifted. “Jenn Powell? You guys are still friends?”

  Lauren laughed softly, remembering their tumultuous relationship. “Yes.”

  “Holy shit. Jenn Powell,” he said slowly. He shook his head and leaned against the couch. “Is she still the same?”

  “You’d probably think so, yes.”

  He smirked. “So is that who you were with last weekend?”

  Lauren bit her lip, the corners of her mouth going up. “No, I was out with a friend.”

  Michael looked at her for a second before he nodded. “Ah,” he said in understanding. “Well…did you have a good time?” There was a forced casualness to his tone now, like he knew it was the appropriate question to ask, even though he had no desire to hear the answer.

  She looked down, a tiny smile on her lips as she thought back to the previous weekend. “Yeah, I did. It was…nice,” she said, her smile growing a bit more pronounced.

  She felt Michael shift beside her. “Did you meet this guy at school?”

  This time, Lauren pressed her lips together, but they twisted up in spite of her attempt. “No, he was my doctor. My chiropractor, actually.”

  There was a beat of silence before she heard a grunted, “Hmmph.”

  She turned her head toward him. “What?” she asked, trying not to
sound defensive.

  He looked at her, his expression derisive. “Must be a good guy.”

  She shifted toward him fully now, folding her arms as her brow knitted together. “And what is that supposed to mean?”

  “Oh come on,” he said, his expression matching his condescending tone. “Aren’t there rules against that kind of thing? Aren’t there lines doctors aren’t supposed to cross with their patients? I don’t know. The kind of guy that would take advantage of something like that just doesn’t earn himself any points in my book.”

  Lauren could feel the need to justify herself—to justify Adam—swelling in her chest, battling with the overwhelming desire to tell him to mind his own business. She felt her teeth come together, and she took a steadying breath, trying to keep herself calm. Was he really going to have the audacity to sit there and question Adam’s morality? After what he’d done to her?

  “I’m sorry, do you even know him?” she snapped. “And I’m pretty sure it’s not your book he needs to be earning himself points in anyway.” Despite her best efforts, the bitterness was dripping from her tone.

  Michael was looking at the water bottle as he rolled it slowly in his hands, his expression unreadable.

  “And what about you?” she asked, turning roughly back toward the TV. “Still dating the winners?”

  For a minute, there was nothing but the quiet murmur of the television between them, and Lauren thought he might not answer her. But then he spoke, his voice so soft that she almost had to strain to hear it.

  “No. I don’t date anymore.”

  Instantly Lauren felt the anger drain from her body at his tone. She hated that his vulnerability still had that effect on her. She inhaled slowly and blew her breath out in a huff, ridding herself of the last bit of animosity she had been feeling toward him. Wasn’t she supposed to be over those feelings anyway? Hadn’t she promised Jenn she’d left that all behind her?

  “Yeah, I guess you don’t have the time, huh,” she said softly.

  “No, I could make the time if I wanted to. But…I won’t do that to her.”

  Lauren turned toward him. “To who?”

  “Her,” he said, motioning behind him to Erin. “I’m not gonna go out there and play the field, date around. She gets very attached to people. And I’m not gonna…”